2 Years have now Passed........ / Vickie M. (Wife)
Tim,
As I sit here tonight and have done this weekend, just waiting on "the day" to come... I have had many thoughts and memories go through my head.... some good ones, some great and then of course the painful ones... I will say this has been a very draining weekend for me ... Emotionally... I have shed many tears....... But above all that I was able to look beyond the tears and move to all the wonderful memories we created. We had a wonderful life, we had a wonderful love, we was the best of friends. Josh and I talk of you often, I talk to family and friends about you often..... I even introduce your memory to people you didnt know, I often tell them what a great man you was. This was Gods will to take you before I was done with you, just know I feel your presence at times and the signs you send at times are unreal. I was sent an email today and it really made me think about the message it conveyed to me ......the words were as follows : 'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never Did When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, But merely opening your hands to receive something better. 'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.' You are forever a part of me whereever I go, and whatever I do, your memory will always live strong within me ..... RIP Tim 2/11/60-10/6/06..........Love ya............Vickie
Happy Birthday Babe!!! / Vickie M. (Wife) Happy Birthday babe, another year in heaven dancing with the angels.... I miss u, Josh misses u, Maggie misses u.......As i sit here and reflect on my today...... what an emotional draining day for me ... First, you now have a new Angel with you tonight in heaven, May Betsy fix u the best ever pancakes ever....... She took care of u on earth, now she has come to prepare ur pancakes in heaven......save a seat for Josh.......LOL.......Was never nothing like Betsy's pancake suppers..... At the funeral home today, I had a very special person come back into my life...... and emotional reunion for us ...She had no idea you had passed away, i had to break the news to her, she is going to be catching up on ur site here....and we have agreed to a lunch meeting soon...She took very good care of u while u was in the hospital 3 years ago, it was Jane.......She has had her battles as well, but she looks really good and upbeat as always, you remember the many days we spent talking with her .........She is a good woman.. A young boy has died also...... an acquaintance of Josh's, he was 17 yrs old..... And your birthday today...... What a highly emotional day......
Why can't life be good. why cant it be as simple as it was with you, why cant things just be normal and happy again...... That is all I want from life.......... a normal and happy life...........you think you could put in a word for me up there.........At times I feel like an ox, that I can handle anything and everything put before me........but alot of times I feel very weak......wondering if happiness will ever find me again......With you as my angel, whatever my fate is in life you will see that I am protected and taken care of ......
Thanks babe .........I love you and miss us together...........We was perfect!!!!
<3 ya
Vickie
1 year Sadiversary....... / Vickie M. (Spouse) Tim....
Unbelievable........ a year has now passed since you took your last breath.... a year has passed ....how have we gotten this far.... Your memory has kept us going... kept me pushing ahead... Although it has been tough many times , I have always seemed to pick myself up and trudge on again... I have met many wonderful friends through this journey of grief... I have found out who our "true" friends really are...But mostly I attribute my well being to Josh, for always taking the time to sit with me, hold me if I needed it , or just welcome me with a open arm hug.... He is quiet the adult I must say.... Thank you for such a wonderful gift of life... The Bible says that this corruptible must put on incorruption and this mortal must put on immortality. While you were here, you were in a body that was corruptible; we know that--the cancer did that. However, you have now put on that incorruptible nature, that immortality. You are now home, and safe from all that might do you harm. We still have our work to do here, and with the dangers of the world lurking, there is one that is looking out for us. Your building here is done, your building there is not> Jesus is preparing our place and we know that you are helping him now. What a sense of love and compassion I got tonight as I seen the many family and friends that turned out for your memorial service and to do the butterfly release... To watch the butterflies take flight.....Joshand I had 3 to release one for all--me, you and him.... as we took our final flight together.... I knew you were truly free ....To prepare..... Now it is our turn. We need to live our lives so that we can join together in heaven. You will always be with me in Spirit... as you are my "Spirit in the Sky"
Watch over us.......... Love~ Vickie, Josh and Maggie
11 Months and I missed this Sept 6th....I thank you for watching over me ...... / Vickie M. (Spouse) Honey........
11 months and I did not plan on spending it the way i did..... Honey I was in the hospital suffering from pneumonia.... How it brought so many memories of this time last year and the way your situation ended.... It brought many scary thoughts to Josh and I and the ones that loved you, when the doctor said to me ...... "you have pneumonia, and then later that day he came back to me to reassure me " you are going to be fine, this is not the same situation as Tim's" "I will make u well" And I will say with having you as my guardian angel and him as my Dr. together you 2 brought me on the right path to get better.... Thanks babe.... Although it wasnt here ....You was in my thoughts as always.....
LOVE U BABE~~ <3 U
Vic
8/31/07-- Marks 1 yr.... / Vickie M. (Spouse) Today I reflect where I was 1 yr ago... A place neither of us wanted to be or should have been.... Life is so unfair sometimes.... I remember all the battles we fought and for some reason this battle was not to be won by us.... But we did try didnt we??? What a wonderful team we was... Today we will reflect on all our wonderful memories of you and us and our family.... Those times will overshadow all the negative that is in our lives... Thank you for a wonderful life..and beautiful memories... But mostly .....THANK YOU for giving us a wonderful Son.....
As I sit here and gather my thoughts of the 10 months gone by.... I feel we have come a long way, but still have a ways to go.... So much left to do ... We think of you often, cry of you often, talk about you always, and laugh and chuckle of all the good times you have brought us all....
On this path of grief... I have met many many wonderful people... who I have grown very close too and who have helped along the way... Without them and first and foremost without Josh... god only knows where I would be... So yes.... we move forward and continue stepping with one foot in front of the other and carry on... But you are never far from our hearts and thoughts...
Love ya babe~~ Vic
PS~~ Wanted to remind you also... today is a special day to us.... As this is the day our lives began... you ask me to start going with you... The day I received your class ring... Wow ... to be in High School once again... what a great feeling that was to be your girlfriend....Thanks for all the memories!!!!
9 Months Today!!! / Vickie M. (spouse) Hey Babe~~
Yes another month down and another month approaching...Wow 9 months today... where has the time gone... SO much has happened and so much has been lost... Why is it always the "good die young?" I know we are not to question the "whys". Together one day we will be again... until then my love, always near and dear to my heart you are.... Love ya!!! <3ya~~ Vickie
Our Baby Boy Is Driving!!! / Vickie M. (Spouse) Tim~~
Why did God take you so soon from us... Our Baby Boy is growing up so quickly and how I wish you was here to witness the latest.... Our Baby Boy as we always called him, Im sure he wouldnt like that today...but we shall keep it as our secret...LOL Believe it or not he is driving... and I might add that he is doing a pretty good job as Mom is always putting the pressures on as to where to go.... Of course the busy parts, the main roads and highways...He takes a deep breath and is ready to accomplish anything I suggest... He continues to make me proud and I know you are proud of him... He wanted so bad to be able to share the news with you ... I told him you knew... You actually helped him pass...You know also it is my payback times for all the times of his asking as we would get ready to go somewhere... "are we there yet" or " where are we going now" He is now getting that back... haha!! Of course, I am sure you know I gave him some great advice... "Dont drive like your dad, you will never get anywhere" "Drive like momma" a chuckle we had as you know I told him that many times before he got his drivers license...Wanted to share the wonderful but sad news(in the sense - he is growing up) with you ... Watch over and protect him, send him many feathers.... Rest In Peace <3Ya Babe~~ Vic, Josh & Magpie.....
8 Months Angelversary Today!!! / Vickie M. (Wife)
Hey Babe~
Here we are at the 8 month mark, and some days it seems like yesterday and other days it seems so long ago....You are never far from our hearts and thoughts... we know you are in a better place, free from all worries and sickness... Believe it or not, Josh is turning 15 next Mon (6/11) and yes... he is after me about getting his permit to drive... of course, moms tactics are ... wait on that report card.... We know he will do fine... He misses you terribly as I do and everyone whose lives you touched with your infectious smile and orneriness...Keep watching over us and protecting us .... Rest in Peace Babe....
<3 you ~~ Vickie
7 month sadiversary....... / Vickie M. (Wife to Tim ) Hey Babe~~
I can't believe it .... 7 months... where has the time went... THe memories and the pain are all so fresh in my mind....
Josh and I are carrying on just as you would have wanted us too... but it is not fun, you not being a part of it... This house is so lonely and empty without you......As summer approaches, so many thoughts and memories of you are coming to my mind... Alot bring smiles but as many bring tears.... I have met many new and wonderful people since I began this journey and they too are learning what you are all about and just what you meant to us...
For now Rest Babe....
Love ya~ Vickie, Josh and Maggie
6 Months Today............. where do i go from here.... / Vickie M. (wife)
Hey Babe~~
Another milestone for Josh and I and I might add .... WOW this one is tough ... and I am not sure why.... But it gives me comfort to know you are pain free and are leading a happy healthy life free of worry and pain... You are never far from my thoughts and my heart.... You will forever be a part of me... Until we meet on the other side....Love you Babe.... continue to watch over Josh and I ....Love you ...
Vickie
Tonight~~ WE HONOR YOU BABE!!!!!!! / Vickie M. (wife) What a bittersweet moment this will be for Josh and I tonight as we go and walk the walk you always walked.... You taught us how to be strong even through the tough times.... We are leaning on you tonight to give us a sign you are with us... and that you can offer us some of that strength from above to get us through tonight.... We love you and will forever love you.... Tonight is for YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! WE LOVE YOU BABE!!
Vickie & Josh and of course.... Mag, too~~!~~
Thanks For The Sign~!~ / Vickie M. (Wife) Tim~
You sure know how to shake a girl... As I was sitting there at the computer last night chatting away with another fellow widower who shares my same sadiversary date....The IPOD started beeping, and I thought the battery must be going dead, NOPE was not the case.... It beeped for a few minutes before the light came on the display area... I looked down at it and there on the IPOD playing was your song--- SPIRIT IN THE SKY!!! I felt you near and it really was the first time you have come back to me since you left us on OCT 6. It really frightened me at first until I realized this was a sign from you that you were nearby and that whatever path I follow in life -- It is gonna be ok!!!
Thanks for the sign and I truly hope to have many more....
You are MY "SPIRIT IN THE SKY"
Love you always~ Vickie
5 Months Sadiversary.... / Vickie M. (Spouse) 5 months today.....
Seems like so long ago and on some days it seems like just yesterday.... I long to hold you and to see your smiling face... to have you hold me and love me once again.... Until we meet on the other side ... Rest in peace baby!!!!
I<3 Ya!!!
Happy Valentine's Day! / Dianne/Mom Of Angel Nicholas White
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIM!!! / Vickie M. (spouse) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIM~~
May you sing and dance with the angels today, as you celebrate your first b-day in heaven...
We truly miss you everyday and love you still... Wish we could see you , talk to you, hold you, and kiss you just once... To have you near would fill me with such joy!!
But I know where you are and that are free of any worries, pain, and sickness.. Enjoy your day as we will honor you on this very special day...
BTW~ Keep those feathers coming in our time of need, it lets us know you are working for all of us on earth...And take care of Molly and keep those feathers coming her way!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!! <3 U!!!
Love, Vickie, Josh & Maggie
4 Month Sadiversary / Vickie M. (wife) Tim~~
I sit here tonight not even believing it has been 4 months today that you took your last breath...Time is sure flying by, at times it seems like a long time ago and other times it is almost like yesterday. Josh, Maggie and I are missing you a lot...There have been some lonely days here for us but overall we are doing ok... Life has been tough to try to find a routine... a "new routine" for Josh and I...We are finding a new routine but at times it has been difficult not having you be a part of that... We are loving and missing you always....Sleep Well Babe!!!
Love You ~ Vickie
Thanks For Taking Care of Mom!!! / Vickie M. (wife) I want to THANK YOU for always looking out for mom... as some of you reading this is wondering..HOW?? How can he do this now?? You see Momma has Alzheimers and in her mind.. Tim is always with her... Well since Tims passing she hasnt said anything to me about him, nor would she understand his passing...Her b-day was Feb 1st and I called her and wished her a happy b-day, I asked her if she had any company and she said Timmy was the only one to visit her, and he didnt stay long and that he would be back with her b-day cake and they could celebrate then... So what does this all mean? I wouldnt think too much about it if Tim were truly here with us but it sure has my mind wondering.. He is always taking care of her and I so appreciate him for that... I know no matter what happens or when-- Tim will always be there for her... We thought and laughed about mommas party with the smores machine and how upset the fire marshall was with us for setting off the smoke alarms-- I can only say THANK GOD the sprinkler system didnt go off. It is very cold here and I know you are warm-- I miss you very much and wish I could see you one time-- as my heart tonight is hurting really bad...not too sure why tonight is a rough one but I think with a good nights rest, I will be all refreshed tomorrow...Again I so LOVE YOU for taking care of MOMMA.... You arent far from her thoughts... Sleep Well My Timmy.... I LOVE YOU!!! <3Always!!!
Vickie
My First B-day without You~!~ / Vickie M. (Wife) Well here I begin 1 of many of my Birthdays without you... Who is gonna take me for my yearly fix of gambling, to the Wheeling Island Gaming Center--betting on the dogs.. and playing the slot machines like we always did.... That became a yearly date for you and I ... However our last visit there--not any occassion just a date for us-- was not an enjoyable one-- because of bad service and the meal was horrible... Remember the pasta bar and how sick it made us-- we could not bring ourselves to any desserts after that... However at the time we both were very nauseous-- but through it all we did find it to be very funny later on...Only you & I could find humor in something like that--well it could be a close call with Sis as you know how crazy she & I can be..I guess it wasn't a wasted night afterall... What I would give to have another date with you good or bad...It wouldn't matter just one more!!! I'm gonna try to get through this day the best I can without you, but you are not too far from my heart...Josh will see to it we have many laughs today...For now he will step in and be my date and he will make you very proud... Sleep well my darling-- I Love You <3 Thanks for the memories!!!
Love Always~ Vickie
Warmest Birthday wishes for you Tim in Heaven / Janet (Mom To Nicholas Piccolo)
Sending all my warmest Happy Birthday in Heaven wishes
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